[RuffStuff]

i get this stuff all the time, im not even 30 yet, some days i can ride like a complete nut and other days im barely avoiding an off, ive had a few bad smashes and put half of this down to the confidence knock and some self preservation kicking in, i caught a pot hole badly the other night and for the next 20 miles to see my mate i was riding like a tool, just couldnt get my head back into it after getting flustered

before my really bad smash at 22 i was a loon on the road, i raced but was faster on the roads, i was planning on entering the manx, i could happily sit at 160 all day long, now i barely touch a 100

i must say dropping back to a small bikes started to get my confidence back quite quickly and im just taking my time with it all again now, relearning step by step

i guess these feelings are just self preservation and some primitive part of the brain interfering with riding, i used to have them as a kid but they were easy to put to the back of my mind then
now its more i cant afford a crash, break my arm again lose use of my hand kinda stuff, if i get them i just roll it down abit or go find a nice lit road n just bimble for a while til my heads back in the game

on another note tho, does anyone feel like they have an angel watching them ??
on many occasions ive been about to jump a bridge or full chat a blind bend and have had a voice in my head screaming slam on to me
round the bend etc and theres been an accident all over the road, which if i hadnt braked for would of been game over for me
all these times you couldnt know it was there and must of just happened moments ago
is it just me am i a bit nuts like hahaha ??